Sleepyhead

Coherent thoughts and the minutes to record them are precious commodities around here. Adam still has his days and nights mixed up and is difficult to rouse during the day. His sleepiness makes feedings pretty tough and because his doctor wants me to feed him every two hours (due to weight loss in hospital),one of every two hours is spent feeding.

My determination to relax and enjoy these newborn days, probably our last, is being severely challenged. It would probably sound too whiny to go into all the details and, anyway, who wants to hear about trouble latching-on and feeding consistently, jaundice heel-pricks, visits to the doctor for weight checks, difficulty sleeping and all the usual frustrations?

Here are the good things: The boys are smitten with this new creature and their eyes light up when they see him. I know it won't last forever but it's very sweet to watch them surround and beg to hold him on their laps.

I was thoroughly spoiled by having my mother out for a little over a week. It's as if a supernatural clean-up fairy descended in our midst. I put down a dirty dish, turn around and it's clean, dry and put away in the cupboard. The laundry was neatly folded and in its proper place almost as soon as it was discarded. Dinners prepared, trash emptied, kids occupied and happy. I don't know how she did it but we sure do miss her.

In spite of the usual lack of sleep, I feel better physically than I have in many months. This pregnancy was not an easy one and I sure am glad it's done.

And, even though I haven't done it much, taking pictures is a good outlet and way for me to connect with the precious, fleeting moments of this mostly rather tedious phase. If I can capture the little toes and fingers, the yawns and soft skin, the gift of this little person, these are the memories that will stay with me the longest.