8/21/2007

Hope is the thing with feathers

On our walk this morning, Ethan and I spied some very promising signs of change. One lone tree with a spot of color. A little hope that September might indeed be happening this year! We continued our search for autumn color on the way home and found a couple more leaves.













There are two weeks until my C-section date of September fifth and, in spite of feeling ready for months, it still seems pretty unreal. Probably pretty typical. I'm not sure I will quite believe there is a baby coming home until I see him.

In spite of the nearly constant signs of life, the rolling elbows and poking fists, the weekly non-stress tests and monthly ultrasounds, I work very hard preparing myself daily for the worst. At the same time I cannot help but enjoy an occasional burst of brightness against the backdrop of constant fear. It is good to have such hope even as I attempt to hold it very lightly.

12 comments:

Emma C said...

Hooray for autumn! I can't believe this cool weather we've been having up in Boston. I made roasted butternut squash soup last night in celebration. Can you tell that I'm a cold-weather kinda gal?!

I'll be thinking of you over the next few weeks and sending warm wishes your way.
Smiles,
Emma

JJ said...

Are the name ideas private? I keep forgetting to ask if Baby M has a name.

(Baby M, not to be confused with BM, that is.)

Can't wait to meet him.

drewey fern said...

I'm trusting with you, Liane. And I love your title SO much:) I loved a recent definition of hope that I heard recently (I just called 3 people trying to remember what it was, but no one could tell me... sigh) which, though I can't remember it word for word, left me with the realization that hope is a lot stronger and deeper than mere wishful thinking. It is, after all, right up there with faith and love! And speaking of which, I love you.

brilynne said...

I loved the pics of the leaves...Feels like we've had fall weather here since May, so guess we're due for summer or spring next! Global warming and all that tosh...

brilynne said...

OH NO!! I did an Aarron thing! Kind of?( Hope I'm not getting this wrong). Let the flame war begin!? No...really..i just signed in as bria by mistake as she's been using my computer, but really that was me, karena....

Anonymous said...

ahh...again...not bria, but kw

ljmax said...

Emma- Thank you. I, too am much more inspired about cooking in the cooler months. And now, because of you, I have a brotform to try out!

JJ--Not totally 100% sure on the names yet...hopefully soon.

Drewey-Thank you. (And I'm glad you appreciated my E.D. reference as well)

Bria, I mean KW...I guess you got your taste of summer when you were here during our worst heat wave!

Anonymous said...

only a true northerner would be excited about fall. Love ya lots

Jen Post

KJ said...

Blessings on you dear Liane!! I love you and will be praying....

rhoda said...

Thinking of you both as the weeks wind down...can't wait to see my nephews again!

Anonymous said...

okay so I'm a little sloowww. Your not excited about fall but having a baby. For that I am excited !!!!
wahoo can't wait to see his beautiful face. love ya lots

Jen Post

Carrie said...

Could you please prevent people from talking about BM's on your blog? What kind of house are you running out there anyway! I love and miss you. My C-Section tip to you: after your surgery, hold a pillow over your incision whenever you move and especially when they make you get up. I promise it really really does make a big difference! I don't know if it is a mental thing or what. And take as much pain meds as they will let you. Don't try to be brave and not take it. If your body can rest, you will recover much more quickly. Tell Keith to brush up on his cooking.

Loommaster will always have Victory!!